I am defeated.

Necromantis returns to modelling in December :)

My tummy is getting much better now! Still get the odd pain here and there but nothing too bad :) so glad I can eat normally again - never want to see dry toast or crackers ever again lol back to my lovely salmon and rice :D

I have made a decision that may shock, but I have decided to leave modelling, I may pick it back up again one day.....but not in the foreseeable future. There is no tragic story behind it, more simply I have evolved, changed. I still miss my grandmother a hell of a lot, its coming up to a year since she died and I've realised I am different, something of me went with her. Not in a doom/gloom way - more I feel calmer, and no longer need to be seeing different things at a million miles an hour to be happy. I am grateful for small things in life, and have took much more pleasure in being with my daughter or friends than running around catching trains etc.

I have had a wonderful time modelling, and I'm going to honour the last 3 shoots I had booked for clothing companies but thats it! :) I want more time to sing with Divine Oblivion - singing is the only time I truly let go, truly escape into a different realm......Necromantis is fading, my sexual deviant alter ego is being taken over by someone much more important....myself. Law. The person I am to my friends and family. If  I have learnt anything these past few years its this - I am not a piece of flesh in front of a camera lens. I am not a glamourous aspirational figure. I am not a number. I am more than that, I am a person.

Onwards! :D

xxx

well I've had a strange couple of months. It all started with "attacks" of acute pain in my stomach and going into my back, coupled with indigestion and acid. Quite often I would wake up with these attacks in the middle of the night and I soon found that everytime I ate the pain came - despite not eating much at all my stomach was bloated out like a balloon, to the degree where one of my friends asked if I was pregnant again!

So a trip to the doctor and they told me it was most probably a bowel infection, and take these anti biotics for a week, all will be fine. A week came and went and still the same. I phoned the doctor and told them this and they said not to worry, probably my stomach is inflamed, give it a bit of time to settle. I gave it 2 weeks, cancelled a lot of my photoshoots and still felt the same. Back to the doctor I went, they said it was probably Irritable bowel symdrome, brought on by the lack of food the past 3 weeks. Eat dry toast and crackers until it settles, eat every 2 hours.

I did this for a week, there was slight improvement but I still had pain and bloating. I went to the pharmacist this time, told him my symptoms and he immediately said it was previously a stomach ulcer, and with all the messing around not eating properly for going on 4 weeks I had probably given myself gallbladder disease too. 

Back to the doctor, told them what pharmacist had said. immediately to hospital :s
Many tests later and yep, pharmacist was right - I have a stomach ulcer and from 4 weeks of very low calorie eating etc gall stones too!

I'm now on the road to recovery but I'll have gallstones all my life and if things don't settle I may have to have it removed.

Conclusion : Doctors suck. Go to the pharmacist instead. If it had been left untreated much longer, ulcers can turn into cancer very quickly!

Ok guys! I'm part of a team that is putting together a Metal compilation CD to be sold for the charity NSPCC. We have the bands all ready to get recording in July and have lots of press/exposure organised! The CD will be sold internationally on the internet AND in music shops all across the UK!

What we need now is a design for cover/packaging of the CD - in return we will credit you in a "thanks" section and write your name/webpage on the packaging itself, and if you wish I can send you a signed print of any of my pictures in my gallery I will post up all the entries as I get them too

This will be great exposure for the artist and helping a very worthy cause too! ^_^

If you would like to take part, send me a message and I'll give you all the technical info

thanks!

Necro xxx

I had a shoot on the 7th of April with the amazing Paindancer Productions www.modelmayhem.com/paindancer2

It was an awful lot of fun, dressing up in Manga / J Rock style and wondering the streets of Manchester's China Town!

What with him being extemely busy and having to get back to the USA, I only just received all the pics last week - but they are well worth the wait! ^_^



( More this way! )

Yesterday I went to London and back to do a shoot for "Slim at Home" magazine: www.slimathome.co.uk/

I used to weigh 13 stone 10, but am now a healthy 8 stone 4 so they thought I would be a good feature for the magazine! :)

Taking my trusty diary, I wrote down my day to share with you all, so here we go!

( London Calling! )

I worked with Phil Winterbourne on the 15th of April, great fun! We did 3 different sets, all shot at Spurn Point. I did my own make up and styling this time!

Hope you like them!



( More this way ^_^ )

The Daily Grind...

• 09:46 busy day ahead, Leeds then band practice! #
• 22:52 I'm soooo tired! but still managed to get some new pics on myspace - www.myspace.com/necromantisfanclub #

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• 19:36 just got in from pizza hut :) #
• 22:11 doing an interview :D my gawd is that the time? :s #

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The Daily Grind...

• 10:19 I need a tight tight tight corset on me...RIGHT NOW! :D #
• 11:10 yikes people can get easily offended can't they? :s #
• 00:01 I hate colds :( #

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The Daily Grind...

• 09:38 model mayhem is down.......annoying! #
• 12:22 my nose is runny :( #
• 20:45 got lots of pics back! yay :) I'm starting to think I should really build my own website soon..... #
• 21:46 oh dear, think I was pretty much topless about 80% of my last shoot.....I'm getting way too comfortable taking my clothes off!! ha ha x) #

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The Daily Grind...

• 00:00 photoshoot+working all night=VERY tired Necro :/ #

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• 09:58 urrrggghh apologies for lack of updates - think I'm getting flu, feel bloody awful. determined not to let it stop me tho! #
• 12:43 drinking loads of water and pumping myself full of vitamin C tablets - this best cure me, have a shoot tommorrow! #
• 13:59 dont think this is working, in fact I feel quite faint :( #
• 21:01 trying to prepare for a shoot whilst dragging my head along the floor...... #
• 23:03 I have spots! :( GAH!!! #

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The Daily Grind...

• 11:03 gah! sore throat, looks like I'm getting a cold....a cold when its not even cold, only my body would be stupid enough! #
• 18:36 well it was a beautiful day so I went to the park....about 10 mins in, the heavens opened & it hasn't stopped raining since :@ #
• 00:25 I want biscuits! :D #

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The Daily Grind...

• 10:26 been for a morning jog - all refreshed now! :) #
• 12:05 model release forms confuse me :s #
• 14:08 twitter is pretty damn awesome isn't it? :D yeah, I'm a geek. Deal! 8) #
• 19:50 my wrist smells of perfume...very very nice perfume.....but I'm not wearing any :s this is so strange! #
• 22:17 did anyone watch that documentry on pro ana websites? damn that was real scary :s #

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The Daily Grind...

• 10:24 recording with divine oblivion today - best get my bum in gear! #
• 13:46 as usual I've no idea what the hell is going on :/ #
• 00:06 just burnt my finger on the oven, its starting to blister....ouch #

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The Daily Grind...

• 22:50 back from manchester - such fun ^_^ #
• 23:05 I'm exhausted tired - you know the kind of tired where your walking around like a zombie, and ur brain doesn't function and ur eyes water?! #
• 23:45 I want Star Bar :( #

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The Daily Grind...

• 10:47 23rd april - London here I come ^_^ #
• 14:27 complete the sentence! :D = We really want to see Necromantis do a shoot with a theme of................ #
• 18:44 getting ready for shoot in manchester tommorrow :D #
• 21:28 why am I building wood furniture at 9.30pm? If I had a sensible brain I'd be dangerous probably 8) #

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The Daily Grind...

• 22:02 I've walked miles today! my feet are killing :s #
• 23:04 china town in manchester on tues! whoop! #

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The Daily Grind...

• 11:13 not the most exciting night out ever, but I enjoyed it :) #
• 17:12 I think I've just remembered why I never tell anyone how I feel - give me strength!!! #
• 00:19 had a great nite, knackered now but very happy :) #

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